On Where I've Been.

I've been trying to decide the best way to get this info out. So, I guess I'll stop stalling & just say it. I'm single. 

Yes, that's correct. I was the dumper.

Let me start by saying, it was a hard decision. A really, really hard one. I do love Dan a lot. I think he's a really nice guy, but we have issues that I know in my heart could never be fixed. We've tried. A lot.

We worked well, most of the time. But Dan has a lot of growing up to do. He enjoys going to work, coming home and playing xbox. He's kinda lazy. Hate to say it but it's true. He never, ever surprises me. Never, ever leaves me little notes, or anything. He won't come on walks with me when I used to take his dog on them. I'd always go out with him & his friends, but he'd never go out with me & mine.

I'm not trying to throw him under the bus by any means, but getting it all out feels good. We've broken up a couple times before. Each & everytime he's said he's trying to change. But, he doesn't. He does for a mnth or two & then goes right back. It's not his fault, its just who he is.

It sucks a lot. It does. I love him & I really wish we could work, but I know in my heart, I'll never be 100% happy.

On Life..

First off, I forgot to do Awkward & Awesome Thursday and I'm extremely mad at myself for forgetting; but I'll do it today! Promises.

So in the past month for so, something strange as happened to me. Something very strange indeed. I'm...becoming...a...woman. (gasp). I know, I am techinically a woman by age but I haven't felt like I've been an actual grown up until now. All of sudden, its like my woman flower blossomed.

I have become obsessed with finding things for a future "home" with boyfriend. I am obsessed with HGTV. I am really obsessed with cute blogs with cute families, with or without children. I want to move out and in with boyfriend immediately. I want to paint and decorate. I want to do projects. I do not want a baby right now though; I'm very content on waiting.

I think a lot of it has to do with reading your blogs, and reflecting back on my life. I am a diffucult person at times and I am okay with that. I am bratty and stubborn and so many other not so flattering things. But slowly, I've been trying to change. Slowly I am figuring out ways to make my relationship (well all of them really) better.

I also think school has helped. I am finally doing something I want to do and everything is coming together so nicely. I'm learning and I love it. I also love that I could possibly have a job in less than 2 years. I know if I had tried regular college again, I'd probably be 30 by the time I'm done. Not that that would be bad but I def need more money.

Finally I can't forget to thank my friends, family and boyfriend. I think they all have had a big role in my becoming a full on woman. (i cook nowadays, what!?) They have been nothing but supportive and loving and without them I'd probably still be stuck in the little kid world.

I am extremely happy for this change and I can't wait to see what life brings me.

Charlie's Story.

I'm not sure if I told this story on my old blog, but if I did, old readers I'm sorry. =P

Once upon a time, I was driving a silver Pontiac Sunfire. I was coming back from lunch in the town I work in, on the busiest street when this lady in front of me suddenly slammed on her brakes. I ended up rearending her. I took the Pontiac to the Progressive Claims Center where they deemed him totalled. I was issued a check and suddenly I found myself on the search for a 2008 Vw Rabbit. My parents and I went to a bunch of dealerships but the price wasn't just right.

Finally, on our last stop 45 mins away from home, we found the winning price! Many of my friends referred me to this older guy who no longer cared about getting commission, so he was able to give us a great price. I had already test driven a Rabbit many months before. I asked what colors he had left and he told white and red. I decided on the red one, so we headed out to this field about a mile away where they kept extra cars.

I got out and knew that he would be mine. There he sat, missing a hubcap, shining bright red. I don't remember much, except that the salesman said his steel was amazing thick and I was excited that I had picked a safe a car all by myself. (my mom reads up on safety of cars like woah).

About two weeks, I was driving my baby home. I decided to name him Charlie after my friends Miniature Daschaund Charlie, who is low to the ground and slow, two things commonly associated with Vws. (hahah). Charlie and I had been accident free for about 2 1/2 years, literally the most amount time without an accident for me. My friends always made fun of me that I drove him like a grandma, but I didn't care, this was a big investment in my opinion.

On the evening of January 6, 2010 I was making a left hand turn into Dunkin Donuts. It's a two lane street that I had to cross, and the lady in the first lane was nice enough to let me by, I slowly creeped forward to check the second lane and it was clear. As soon as I began to cross it, this guy (or maybe girl, idk) came speeding down the lane, and didn't even try and stop! He(she) hit me on the passenger side with such force I'm surprised no one was hurt. He(she) backed up and promptly drove a way. Many people saw the make and model and color but no one was able to get his (her) license plate. I entered the parking lot & looked at my baby. His whole passenger side door was crushed in.


My cousin Kelly whom was with me and sitting on the passenger side was thankfully okay, she just had minor whiplash. Everyone was so surprised that she wasn't hurt. I believe she didn't get hurt because we were talking and she was facing more towards me then the door. I was given a warning for improper turns. They still have not caught the guy to this day and I don't believe they ever will.

I drove my baby to boyfriends house, which was literally a one minute drive away. He brought my cousin home and then later that night I drove Charlie home to my actual house. The following day he was towed to the body shop and they began work on him. I actually brought it to the body shop that boyfriend used to work at before they laid off. They've always done great work..

Fast forward to today. It has been 1 mnth & 3 wks since I've last seen my love. Unfortunately, we've had to wait for parts, for this and that. Frankly, I am pretty sick of it. I was originally supposed to get my baby back at the end of last month. But every week its been pushed back and back. Today I am supposed to get him back, but that's if everything goes smoothly. If it's delayed another couple of days, I might have to go to the Better Business Bureau. They're doing a great job I'm sure and paying for my rental, but this long hold up is kinda fishy. I think Charlie probably sat there about 2 weeks before they even started on him. Who knows. I'm just praying he comes home today. =)

The Boyfriend.

This is boyfriend. His name is Dan. He is 26 years young. He currently works as an area manager for Subway. He absolutely loves his job.


He was kinda just thrown into it. He went to school and worked as an Auto Body Tech. He thought he loved the job, but more and more he got stressed out about it. Then, they laid him off due to it being so slow. He couldn't find a job for the longest time, till his best friend suggested he work for Subway.


First, he worked as an employee, than moved up to manager and finally he is at area manager. He bascially does everything and anything. His job is tough and it doesn't just stop at work. Usually at least once a night, every night, someone calls him needing something.  I personally could never ever do his job, I like to leave my work at work.


Currently he lives with his mom. He is trying to save up enough to move out (possibly with me, but I'm pretty broke). He has the cutest pup named Mulligan. Mulligan is my little BFF. He follows me everywhere. He is 6, almost 7 and full bred Boston Terrier.

Here is he with his wittle bowtie on, haha

Dan and I met when I was a senior in high school. My best friend at the time introduced me to him via her coworker, who was his best friend. I thought he was so freakin cute. He had to be mine. We hung out for a while, but at point he told me that he wanted to be friends because he had an interest in someone else. My heart was sad.

A year later though he found me on Myspace and we reconnected. The girl he had interest in just dumped him so we got to hang out. =) 6 months later we were unofficially, officially together. I won't lie, we have had our hard times in life. We've broken up a couple of times, but always have gone back to each other.

We are currently saving money to move out, well he is. I need a better job first. I'm not sure where the road will take us, but hopefully after we move in everything will fall nicely into place. I'm not getting any younger, hahah.